I have a new blog! I've moved over to Weebly, and the new blog is called Waiting in Faith, as I am trying my best to patiently wait for God to answer my prayers for another child. I hope you'll move with me, and continue to pray for us and occasionally bless me with a comment or two. :-) www.waitinginfaith.weebly.com
Saturday, March 21, 2015
Okay, I'm calling on all my prayer warriors, and have already sent out 2 group emails. I went for the ultrasound to check my follicles, and there was only 1, but it's a good one, so I had the shot to force ovulation on Wednesday. I start progesterone on Monday, and 9 days later, I take a home pregnancy test. No matter the outcome, I'm going to need prayers. I take the test on April 2, and April 1 is the 1st anniversary of our miscarriage. Please pray for God's Will, my peace and acceptance of God's Will, and of course, a baby.
Before I met with the fertility doctor, a friend of mine shared a story and a prayer with me, that I'm now going to share with you. *For my non-Catholic friends and followers, there have been times that Mary, and/or Jesus have appeared privately to people in modern history. These are called apparitions. Marian apparitions are times when Mary appeared. All are investigated by the Church. Some are decided to be fakes, frauds, or crazy people. Some are decided to be true, and worth paying attention to. One Marian apparition that is still going on today (as far as I know) is at Medjugore. An apparition can't be decided upon until it is over, so the verdict is still out on this one.* However, there is a statue of the Infant of Prague (Baby Jesus) there, and it is said that if you pray in front of this statue for a baby, you get pregnant.
Well, my friend's parents went to Medjugore, and prayed for 2 of their daughters (my friend's sisters) to get pregnant. Within a couple weeks, they both announced their pregnancies, and shortly after, my friend discovered she was also pregnant. I can't go to Medjugore, so she gave me this novena to pray instead. *Again, for my non-Catholic friends, a novena is a prayer or set of prayers that you pray every day for 9 days, every month for 9 months, every hour for 9 hours, you get the idea* So far, I have prayed this novena before I met the dr, and before my ultrasound to check my follicles, and so far, everything is going perfectly. I'm going to start it again on Monday when I start my progesterone. Please join me in prayer. If you aren't comfortable praying this specific novena, that's okay. Any prayers are welcome.
The Infant of Prague Novena
O Jesus, Who has said, "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened," through the intercession of Mary, Your Most Holy Mother, I knock, I seek, I ask that my prayer be granted.
(make your request)
O Jesus, Who has said, "All that you ask the Father in My Name, He will grant you," through the intercession of Mary Your Most Holy Mother, I humbly and urgently ask the Father in Your Name that my prayer be granted.
(make your request)
O Jesus, Who has said, "Heaven and earth shall pass away, but My Word will not pass away," through the intercession of Mary Your Most Holy Mother, I feel confident that my prayer will be granted.
(make your request)
PRAYER OF THANKSGIVING
Divine Infant Jesus, I know You love me and would never leave me. I thank You for Your close Presence in my life.
Miraculous Infant, I believe in Your promise of peace, blessings, and freedom from want. I place every need and care in your hands.
Lord Jesus, may I always trust in Your generous mercy and love. I want to honor and praise You, now and forever. Amen
Thanks in advance for any prayers you offer for us!
God Bless you all,
Sunday, March 1, 2015
I know its been awhile since I've posted...like going on 2 months. So, Emma's presentation on Ancient Rome was a huge success (and she LOVED it!), and I was SO proud of my little girl! Barely 6, and I'd say that out of all the KIDS that presented (mostly the moms did the presentations - whaaaaat???), she tied for 1st place in knowledge of the subject and professionalism. Yeah, she's 6. :) My little nerd. She actually asked me on the way out of the housing edition that day if she could do another project like that soon. ❤
Skye finished puppy school. She tied for first place in half of her tests, got a puppy diploma, her picture in a graduation cap, treats, and a new squeaky toy. It was so cute!
I saw the fertility specialist this last Monday. He was very nice, and came up with a game plan, that (if it works) could result in twins or even triplets (more than that, and I'd probably be having a minor heart attack lol). He wants to give this plan only 2 cycles and then we might have to talk about the next plan. That tells me he's pretty confident in this plan if he's only going to do it for 2 cycles. Kind of anxiously excited... Prayers are much appreciated.
Also, I'm back on my oily antidepressant. I realized a couple of days ago, that while I was no longer sobbing uncontrollably, or wanting to die, I had gradually become less and less interested in spending time with friends, was quickly moving into a place of no energy, etc. Even doing school with Emma had become a chore (which I usually really enjoy), I had totally stopped knitting (a hobby I've REALLY enjoyed), and calling a friend on the phone? Forget it! I was depressed! I hadn't even noticed it sneaking up on me! Anyway, come to find out, oils are very different from prescription meds. A prescription medication that lowers blood pressure (for example), will lower it, regardless of if your body needs it lowered or not. An essential oil that lowers blood pressure among other things will only lower your blood pressure up to the point of health. If you already have low blood pressure, it won't lower it at all! Isn't that amazing?! It's called (I believe) an adaptogen. So cool! So, I'm back on my oils, and feeling great! Also, I also learned that Dill essential oil is great for stopping/minimizing cravings (like sugar, nicotine, etc.)! And apparently, Bergamot oil is great for stopping bleeding. Two oils I am sooo ordering ASAP! :)
Anyway, hope you've all been well!
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Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Well, I survived Christmas, everyone is healthy again, and I never DID catch it. Still can't figure out how. But, bright side of Emma having a 104 fever (that I was able to bring down to 98 in just 10 minutes with Peppermint essential oil), was that it was just the four of us for Christmas. It was exactly the Christmas I needed this year. Quiet, low-key, no expectations, no pressure. I even found this perfect poem that I posted on Facebook to remember Charlotte by. I can't honestly say that I enjoyed Christmas without my mom and Charlotte, but I got through it with no tears, so that's something. I had to put my antidepressant blend on like 5 times instead of 2, but still...
Since Christmas, I found out that Frankincense (one of the oils in my antidepressant blend) can actually lower cortisol, and since I have adrenal fatigue (my cortisol levels are much too low), I've been trying not to use my blend on a schedule, but only if I REALLY need it. I've been maintaining my peace pretty well on my own except for this last (awful) weekend. With the kids being sick, we had to postpone the extended family Christmas until this last Saturday (with Christmas break, it was the next weekend that Chocolate Chip was here after Christmas). My MIL largely ignored me at Thanksgiving, and I was hoping for similar treatment this last weekend. I should have known that I wouldn't be that lucky 2 vists in a row... All was going fairly decently until she asked me when we would have another baby while rocking an invisible baby in her arms. I just stared at her, trying to get my heart back in place and out of my stomach. I told her that we'd been trying for years, and that it was up to God. Of course, she couldn't let it go, and started asking about testing, drugs, etc. She knows we lost Charlotte in April. Finally, my wonderful husband (who was in another room) came in and rescued me. Still, my heart was shattered. Obviously, I cried myself to sleep that night. I'm not really mad at her. She just has no filter and no sense. Still, I don't think she's asked me about babies since we first got married almost 9 years ago...horrible timing.
Anyway, the next day was Sunday, and I was still nursing my broken heart when a friend who is living a less than ideal life told me that she's 4 months pregnant...and she has a 5 month old. I didn't even know that was physically possible! I just started crying. Even she commented that it didn't seem fair. That I have a husband, try to live a good, holy life (I said try), desperately want another baby, and all I've gotten is heartache. She is single, overwhelmed, and babies just fall in her lap....
I had prayed during Mass that my peace would be restored. I realized around dinnertime yesterday that I was almost back to the level of peace I had enjoyed before the weekend started. That can only be from God. I'm not strong enough on my own to have gotten past all that that fast.
Finally, some good news. A friend of mine (who has lost 2 babies) told me about a new doctor she's seeing right before Christmas. She encouraged me to make an appointment for myself, and gave me the number. I'll admit that between the family being sick, and trying to get through the holidays in one piece, I totally forgot about it. Then, I ran into her after Mass yesterday, and she made me promise to call him. I was hesitating, because my naturopath had just started me on some new supplements, and I wanted to give them a month or two to see what happened. She said it would take at least 3 months to get in with him anyway, and I could always cancel. So, yesterday I called and they were able to get me in in just over ONE month (February 23)!!! I'm excited and scared at the same time. I already have a sitter lined up for Emma. I just haven't had a chance to tell Mark yet. Hopefully tonight we'll be able to sneak a few moments alone to talk.
Well, gotta go now. Emma's working on preparing a presentation and poster about Ancient Rome for our Co-op on Friday. I promised her we could finish the poster this morning.
God Bless you and keep you!
Monday, December 22, 2014
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
As you might recall, early this year, Young Living Essential Oils helped me conceive little Charlotte Marie after only 2 weeks of use. Well, I'm not pregnant, but have an even bigger Essential Oil (EO) miracle to report.
Going into Thanksgiving without my baby or my mom was difficult. Immediately following Thanksgiving was killing me. Literally, killing me. Christmas decorations and commercials were constant reminders that Christmas would be here whether I could handle it or not. I couldn't get off the couch, it took every ounce of my being to not constantly be sobbing, and every time I was alone for more than a few minutes, I was sobbing. I even started having some suicidal thoughts. It was BAD. Then, Saturday afternoon, I asked some oily friends for help. They gave me a recipe that saved my sanity, and probably my life. There are other brands of EOs, and I don't know much about them or their effectiveness, but Young Living brand is what I use.
My antidepressant recipe:
In a 15 ml bottle, I mixed 30 drops of Valor, 30 drops of Frankincense, 30 drops of Peace & Calming, and filled with a carrier oil (I use extra virgin olive oil, because I always have it in the house). Twice a day, I put it on my heart and spine.
I also use 1 drop of Orange, and a couple drops of Stress Away on my wrists twice a day.
Cedarwood on the back of my neck for sleep.
Since I started using this mixture, I am smiling, joking, and laughing again. I'm ME again. It's nothing short of a miracle. I even put up all of our Christmas decorations with only a little sadness, instead of sobbing and wanting to gouge my eyes out. (Seriously, it was BAD)
I can't even begin to explain to you how bad I was doing, and how much better I am now.
I would like to ask prayers, however, for 3 (yes, THREE) of my friends who have suffered a miscarriage in the last couple of weeks. I unfortunately know all too well the heart wrenching pain they are experiencing right now, and I know that nothing physical can help them right now.
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Thursday, November 27, 2014
On this very difficult Thanksgiving, I thought I would make a list of things I AM thankful for. So, here they are in no particular order:
I am thankful that I was able to care for my mom, here at home, until her last breath.
I am thankful for my 2 beautiful girls, who are both with me today, and healthy.
I am thankful for my little saint in Heaven, who I am sure is praying for me today and always.
I am thankful for my wonderful husband, without whom I would likely be in an insane asylum or prison right now.
I am thankful to still have a house, food on the table, and heat.
I am thankful to have reconnected with my uncles and their families. It's nice to feel like I have an extended family again. ❤
I am thankful that this year is almost over.
I am thankful for wonderful friends and their prayers.
I am thankful for our awesome puppy, Skye, who always seems to know when I need an extra hug or kiss. :)
I hope all of you can find some joy and something to be thankful for today, even if you have to look harder than you ever have.
Try to have a Happy Thanksgiving!
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